Hey baby...I came here to update your site and cant hardly stand it...just because its been almost 5 years now and I so long to have that big old hug from you and to hear you say that "MOM" I can hear it in my head but I want to hear it in my ears and I can't and Im so sad because of that.

I know you are having the time of your life up there and meeting new friends and are as happy as can be and I am so thankful for that.  and it gives me such a relief to know that.

Thank You God for that!

I love you and miss you like crazy and Long to hear your voice and see you again one day this will happen and that will be all worth it then.  Until then I will for you try to be happy and not sad as I know that is what you would want for me.

Love you my sweet Angel Chad

Mom

OH GOD CHAD......I MISS YOUSO MUCH I CAN'T STAND IT...I HAVE BEEN CRYING ALL DAY LONG, EVERY TIME I LISTEN TO MUSIC YOU ARE THERE SOMEWHERE IN THE WORDS....IT'S HARD TO LISTEN MOST TIMES AND I GUESS I NEED TO STOP DOING THAT TODAY, IT'S JUST TOO MUCH!!

I AM TRYING TO CHANGE YOUR SONG ON HERE TO

"I CAN'T LIVE WITH OUT YOU"

BY MARIAH CAREY YOU KNOW I THINK SHE IS THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO SIGNING/MUSIC....BUT THATS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW THAT I CAN'T LIVE WITH OUT YOU....GOD THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR FATHER CHAD, LORD ONLY KNOWS WHAT I WOULD DO IF I LOST HIM AS WELL....WELL MY LIFE WOULD BE OVER FORSURE THEN....I PRAY EVER NIGHT CHAD THAT I WILL GO FIRST JUST SO I WOULDN'T BE LEFT HERE WITHOUT BOTH OF YOU....OF COURSE THEN HERE YOUR DAD SITS WITHOUT THE BOTH OF US SO I GUESS LIFE INSTENT FAIR HUH.....WELL HELL O IT'S NOT...LOOK HERE WE SIT WITH OUT YOU AND THAT SURE ISN'T IS IT? MAYBE DAD AND I WILL GO AT THE SAME TIME.........GOD THATS WHAT I WISH ANYWAYS. CHAD I LOVE YOU TO THE STARS AND BACK AGAN AND MORE AND I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH HONEY, I JUST WISH I COULD HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AND HUG YOU AND KISS THAT BEAUTIFUL FACE OF YOURS AGAIN....ONE DAY CHAD, JUST ONE DAY I WILL AND YOU BETTER BE PLANING FOR ME NEVER TO LET YOU GO AGAIN. BETTER GET OFF HERE BEFORE YOUR DADDY COMES HOME, HE ALWAYS TAKES MY WORRIES AWAY HE IS SUCH A WONDERFUL HUSBAND CHAD, I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART.

LOVE YOU FOREVER BABY!!!

YOUR MOM

Chad,

Thank You so very very much for the dream you gave me last night.  I asked and You gave! You knew how much I needed that.

It sure was nice to see your smiling face again, I have a smile on my face right now just thinking of it.  I miss you sweetie and love you so much and I know you know that.

Lots of Hugs & Kisses,,

MOM

Hey Chad,

Just wanted to tell you again Happy Thanksgiving and that I love you more then ever.

I also wanted to tell you that I am so very proud of you!!!

Miss You sweet heart,

Mom

Chad,

I sure hope you are having a loving Valentines Day today!

I sure miss you baby,  

I have to keep reminding myself that you are in the best place...Better then here on this crapy earth.

That you are always happy, always smiling, always laughing and forever loved.

Until we meet again sweet baby of mine!!!

 I Love you

and

Happy Valetines Day!!

Your

MOM

21st

Hey Chad,
Wanted to tell ya Happy 21st Birthday again.
We sure hope you are having a great time on your Birthday today with all your new friends and Family.  We know you are having a great time.  Just wish We was with you Hugging you!
I Love You So Much!!!!
Miss You Too!!!!
Together Forever,
Mom & Dad

You are missed and loved.

Love,

The Burd family

HAPPY NEW YEARS CHAD ANOTHER YR. HAS SOON PASSED WITH OUT YOU HERE WITH US.  BUT YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH US IN OUR HEARTS AND MY DREAMS.  THANKS FOR THE LIGHT FLASHING THE OTHER NIGHT.  I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!
LOVE AND BIG HUGS,
MOM & DAD

MERRY CHRISTMAS
CHAD, CINDY, GRANDDADDY, AUNT BRENDA, BILL,  BIG TIM, BOB,  VERGIL & EVERYONE ELSE WE LOVE AND MISS VERY MUCH....EVERY DAY OF EVER NIGHT OF THE REST OF OUR LIVES.
LOVE YOU ALWAYS,
MICHELLE & BRIAN

HEY BABY,
HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME UP THERE IN HEAVEN BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH!
I WISH YOU WHERE HERE WITH ME SO YOU COULD MAKE FUN OF MY AGE ON MY BIRTHDAY....LOL.
OH YEAH I NEED A BIG HUG TOO, HAVENT HAD ONE IN A WHILE!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING CHAD
LOVE YOU ALWAYS,
MOM

HEY SWEETIE,

WE WENT CAMPING THIS WEEK END & HAVE HAD A GREAT TIME OUT HERE IN THE WOODS.  MARTY AND YOUR DAD WENT HUNTING EVERY DAY, HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANYTHING AS OF YET....BUT WE ARE STILL HERE SO I WONT GIVE UP YET.  I KNOW YOU ARE OUT THERE WITH THEM HUNTING YOURSELF AND HELPING THEM.  JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNO0W THAT I FINALLY GOT TO SLEEP IN THE TENT WE BOUGHT FOR YOU AND I EVEN SLEPT IN YOUR SLEEPING BAG...I DIDN'T KNOW THAT UNTIL I WAS ROOLING IT UP AND SEEN YOUR NAME ON IT, THAT YOU WROTE YOURSELF.  I LOVE FINDING NEW THINGS THAT REVOLE AROUND YOU, I HOPE I NEVER STOP FINDING THINGS LIKE THAT.  I LOVE YOU SWEET HEART SO VERY MUCH AND MISS YOU EVEN MORE THEN LIFE!! 
LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER,
YOUR MOM XXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOO

Hey baby,
i wanted to tell you thanks for me dream this morning, for my great big hug i got!!!!  i so needed one from you.
I remember telling you in a dream a while back that that was all i needed from you was a hug every now and again to get me threw this and you have done what i asked.  thank you chad, with all my heart please continue hugs for me.
Love you sweetie,
your mom
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HEY BABY!
I HADWENT TO BED AROUND MIDNIGHT AND HAVE LAID THERE FOR ALMOST 3 HRS AND STILL CAN'T SLEEP....
LANCE CALLED ME THIS EVENING TO TELL ME THAT "BIG TIM" HAS JOINED YOU UP THERE IN HEAVEN.  I CAN'T BELIEVE IT CHAD, JUST AS I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE NOT HERE ANYMORE.  I HAVE PICTURED YOU THERE TO GREET TIM AND I CAN SEE THE BIG OLD SMILES ON BOTH OF YOUR FACES SAYING, "HEY BUDDY, HOW YA BEEN" AND YOU SAYING "WHATS UP" I SMILE AS I'M TYPING THIS...BIG TIM WAS A GREAT MAN AND ONLY SHOWED HIS LOVE IN THE WORLD.  PLEASE WATCH OVER TIMMY AND BOBBIE THEY NEED YOU AND BIG TIM AND OF COURSE GOD TO GET THEM THREW THIS. I LOVE YOU CHAD SO MUCH SWEETIE AND IF IT'S YOU OR WHO EVER, THANKS SO MUCH FOR SENDING THE BUTTERFLY TO ME ALMOST EVERDAY, HE MAKES ME SMILE WHEN HE LANDS ON MY FINGER AND LETS ME KISS HIM.
LOVE & MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY,
YOUR MOM 
MICHELLE
XXOOXXOOXXOOXX